Rhory Camille: Month Five

Rhory is our little petite girl! At 5 months old she is still wearing 3 month clothes, and who knows if she will EVER wear 6 month clothes! I mean, obviously she will, but I just want her to stay little forever! As the months go on it is fun to watch her learn and grow and start doing more on her own. She LOVES her exersaucer and has become more and more aware of each of the individual toys on it. She laughs and cackles whenever a cat is near and wants to immediately pet them and then put their fur in her mouth. Sitting up by herself is her latest skill and she is now a master! Josh and I both thoroughly enjoy the time we spend with her in the evenings and in the morning. She has gone to visit her big brother several times and just has the BIGGEST smile any time we are there, which of course makes my heart happy. Life is moving much too fast, as always, but we are enjoying every day with our sweet girl!

Christmas 2014

This post has been in the works for some time, and I am glad I am finally getting around to posting. 

Christmas this year was probably even more bittersweet than last year. It was our first Christmas with one of our children but also the second without. This Christmas would have been much more exciting with Sawyer because he would have been more interested in the presents and whatnot. We chose to do the Random Acts of Kindness in his memory again, and it was pretty disappointing. Not a lot of people participated, but I have to say that I am so thankful for those that participated and it made their acts of kindness that much more special. 

Bitter and sweetness are two emotions that I have never enjoyed feeling at the same time. Feeling sad about missing Sawyer then makes me guilty that I am not as happy as I should be about what we now have in Rhory. When I am happy about having Rhory here I feel guilty that I may be forgetting Sawyer. In all reality I am 100% sad and 100% happy at the same time, and I have learned that is actually possible.

Josh and I spent some time out at Sawyer's grave and also a lot of time with Rhory and our families. She brought joy that we thought last year was all but lost. Last Christmas was miserable and I distinctly remember begging God to never let us go through another Christmas without another child here, and little did I know we already had one on the way!

Here are some pictures from Christmas

Our RACK - delivering cookies to the firemen (one of many RACKS)

Meeting MawMaw for the first time!

santa came!